on the way to god

Where am i?

This is a bridge.

How did I get here?

You died by your own hand.

That was my intent.

Yes. 

You are a Raven.

I brought you here.

Why?

I am here to help you cross.

Cross?

We will cross the bridge.

Why do I need to cross?

You shall join the others.

Others.

Others who left their worlds by their own hands.

Like I did.

They too were consumed by pain.

Have they escaped from it?

Some have.

Have they found Peace?

Some still search.

Will they find it?

Possibly.

What happens if they don’t find Peace?

They remain.

Until when? Forever?

Until they do.

How do we cross?

I will carry you.

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You have crossed the bridge. 

I don’t remember crossing.

It is better that way.

You’ve had this conversation before.

Many times.

Am I different from the others?

You are the same.

Is anyone different?

Many.

Where do they go?

Somewhere else.

Have you been there?

I am everywhere.

Are you God?

No.

Where is God?

Everywhere.

Will I see God?

Eventually.

Soon?

When you are ready.

How will I know I’m ready?

You will see God.

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Who are you? 

I am your guide.

You are Raven, too.

Yes. We are Raven. Escorts for your journey.

Why do I need an escort?

To help find what you seek. 

I’m looking for Peace. 

Yes. 

I did not find it when I died.

Few do.

Where do I start?

With blessings. 

Blessings, I have few. 

Make a list of good things.

My list is short. 

Your list is long.

I’ve made the list.

You may add to it at any time.

What now?

Make a list of bad things.

It is a long list.

Yes.

Now what?

Make one list.

But they aren’t the same.

When the list is one, you will move from this place.

Then I find Peace? 

You will find Gratitude.

And then I can move on from this place?

Yes.

How do I do it?

You must discern a way.

It might take time.

It will.

I might not be able to do it.

Maybe not.

Will you stay with me?

Yes. 

What is your name?

You may choose my name, if you wish.

I call you Choice.

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Choice.

I am here.

Where did you go?

Nowhere. 

You were always here?

Yes. 

I am nearly finished.

Yes.

There are things I cannot put on the good list.

Yes.

Am I finished?

If you wish.

May I move on from this place?

You may move with one list.

But they can never be one.

Then you can never move.

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Choice.

I am here.

You never left.

That is correct.

Everything is a blessing except one thing.

What have you learned?

I see that life is cyclical.

Yes.

When bad things happened, I reacted badly and made them worse.

Yes.

When I learned the lesson being taught, good things came of it.

Yes.

My choices in action and thought made the path more difficult.

Your perception has changed.

Perspective is a choice.

Yes.

May I move now?

No.

One thing remains. I cannot reconcile it.

You see the cycle.

And I recognize the blessings.

Yes.

My final item is my death.

There can only be one list.

I brought pain to so many in order to remove my own.

Yes.

I did not find Peace.

Yet.

Yet?

You are in pursuit of Peace now.

What of the pain I left behind? Who of them could understand?

What do you seek?

I want to see God.

Why? 

Because I have questions.

One list.

Although I cannot see it, there must be value in their pain. 

Yes.

Can one list grant me passage while pain and guilt remain in my heart?

Of a sort.

I can move?

Yes, but there is more work to be done.

Thank you, Choice.

It is my privilege to escort you on this journey.

Is this the first time you’ve been called by that name?

No. It is the name most often assigned to me.

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Hello.

I have moved from the place of Peace.

You have moved into a place of Peace.

I found the path to Peace and it brought me here.

That is correct.

What do I call you?

You choose my name.

What are you most often called?

Peace.

You are also Raven.

Yes.

Why are you here?

I followed my path.

As I must do.

Yes.

Was my path set for me?

No.

My choices brought me here.

Yes.

Did other peoples’ choices play a part in my life?

Yes. All are connected.

So it can’t be helped, then.

Yes, it can be helped.

How?

Souls can take care to remember their choices affect others.

I see. Like I didn’t take care with my choice to die. I hurt those I love.

You did.

But I felt like there was no choice.

Choice never left.

I feel shame. How do Peace and shame occupy the same space in my heart?

You were human then.

What am I now?

Energy.

But I feel human.

Yes.

Will I always feel human?

No.

I will feel like energy?

That depends where you stop on your path.

Is there an end?

What do you want?

I want to see God.

Why?

Because I have questions.

Do the work, you will get what you want.

My questions can be answered?

Yes.

What is my work here in the place of Peace?

Make two lists.

Two lists again.

People you hurt. People who hurt you.

Both lists will be long.

Yes.

Are they to become one list?

Yes.

And one list allows me to move on?

Yes.

What is the point of the list?

That is for you to discern.

I cannot see the purpose.

Do the work, or remain here.

You still have no name.

My name is revealed in your understanding of the list.

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My lists are long but I’ve made progress.

Explain.

I’m learning to forgive the people who hurt me.

Why?

Because they continue to hurt me while I hold the pain.

In forgiving, pain is released.

Yes. The power to hurt me is not theirs.

Two lists remain.

What do I make of the people I’ve hurt? They need no forgiveness.

True.

I was the perpetrator of the pain.

Yes.

Am I to forgive myself?

Do you understand how your choices affected others?

Yes.

Are you sorry?

Yes.

Are you the same person?

No.

Would you make amends if you could?

Yes.

Would you forgive if you were them?

I’m not sure.

You have more work to do.

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I am ready to move, Forgiveness.

You know my name.

Yes. I left one person off both lists.

Who is it?

Me.

Yes.

I needed to forgive myself.

Yes.

My shame is gone.

Yes.

I found Peace.

Farewell.

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Am I still in the place of Peace?

You will always know that place now. You have done the work.

No one can disrupt it?

That choice is always yours.

Where am I now?

What do you want?

I want to see God.

Why?

I have questions.

Do the work, you will find what you seek.

Am I to make another list?

No.

What work remains to be done?

You must cease to be.

Cease to be?

Yes.

Stop being human?

Stop being.

I’ll be nothing and I won’t see God.

If that is your choice.

I feel my Peace slipping away.

Your choice. 

How do I proceed? 

Sit in silence.

It is quiet in this place.

Sit in silence and cease to be.

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Raven, have you ceased to be?

Yes.

How are you here?

I chose to be your guide.

If I cease to be, I still have choices?

Yes.

Then I still exist.

Always. 

But am I me?

Your choice.

What if I don’t cease to be?

You remain.

It’s not so bad here. I feel no human needs. No hunger or thirst, no fatigue or loneliness.

Those needs are behind you.

I have one need.

Yes.

To be me.

Yes. 

I must abandon myself.

Yes.

Can I change my mind later?

Yes.

Then I will try.

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How long have I been here?

There is no time.

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I moved, but returned here.

Yes.

Because I asked a question.

When you cease to be, there are no questions.

Will I see God? 

Is that what you want?

Yes.

Why?

I have questions.

To move, you must cease to be.

I feel lighter and more peaceful.

Yet you remain.

I have more work to do.

When you do the work, we both move.

To the same place?

No.

Where will you go?

I will cease to be.

Are you Ego?

Yes.

What happens to me?

You will join God.

I join God?

Your Energy becomes divine.

My questions will then be answered?

You will have no questions.

I will do the work.

Your choice.

Will we meet again?

We will.

Thank you.

Farewell.